I don’t know about you, but a particular quirk (curse?) of mine is constant analysis/evaluation of life, particularly how well I’m doing at any given activity. Stress has been too high for a few months now, and I don’t like where that has taken me.
One of the bad things about being in a stressed state is a reduced ability to solve problems. This makes things worse, don’t you agree? Another not-so-nice feature of stress is the magnifying glass it seems to put between you and problems. They just seem….bigger.
It’s easy when you’re feeling bad to look at those bigger problems you don’t know how to solve and just shut down. I think the worst thing about being stressed is what it does to the family. Rather than feeling like playing with my kids or even just enjoying them a little, my mind is cluttered with todo lists and problems. Not cool.
New Year’s is the big time to make resolutions; the assumption is you set goals for the year and your life will improve. That’s all well and good, but I’m not making any resolutions right now. Instead, I’m making changes. One tiny change at a time.
It’s amazing how much better life can feel with even one problem out of the way. Equally amazing (and frequently ironic) is how easy it can be to solve some of those problems. Case in point: Hubby and I had a giant desk that needed to be removed from our house. I stared at it for ten months, getting dusty and cluttered, before I finally taught myself how to post a sale ad on CraigsList. Honestly, I didn’t believe for a second that anyone would buy it. But they did! And came to pick it up to boot. All I had to do was clean it off.
Now that it’s gone, I’m enjoying looking at the big bare spot where it used to sit. I’m also breathing a bit easier, knowing that what seemed like an insurmountable task is over and done with. On to the next one. Which seems easier now, since I can look at my empty carpet and breathe a little easier now that that item is off my todo list.
I realized yesterday that I haven’t written a todo list in a while. I’ve thought about making resolutions or even just some monthly goals, but the whole idea just sets my teeth on edge. So I’m not doing it. No resolutions for me! I think I’ll stick to the small change strategy instead.
Did I mention that I actually went sledding with the boys last week? I did! It was fun too, so much so that I almost went again this afternoon. I opted to go shopping and finish some errands instead, but at least I did something fun recently.
That’s a start.
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